MightyBobX Quotage

Uf. I used to be happy, like all the time. Sometimes I'd be angry or depressed, but it'd be for like 10 minutes and I'd be done; it'd always boil down to "whatever, doesn't matter", and the solution would be jsut to take my mind off it for a second and i'd be fine. It's so the opposite now. I'm always so... bleh. Sometimes I'll be upset, and sometimes i'll be happy, but it always passes with time. I have to struggle to feel good. Is this the way it is for other people? I can't imagine anyone having to live this way their whole life. It's affected music too. I used to always love happy, upbeat songs, and when i felt like relaxing or whatever, more mellow stuff was good and enhanced that. But now i don't have "mellow" songs, i have sad or depressing songs, and they can easily bring my mood down; i can only enjoy happy songs when i'm already in that kind of mood. I didn't even used to have moods of any significance. To be fair, i can get happy just as fast, like if i'm hanging out with pat or maggie or michelle. But it's all so fleeting. I can't even deal with a stupid teenage breakup without it changing how my brain works; thank god nothing serious has ever happened to me.